Write your truth…..Maybe write a book.
Truth is I have always had a love for writing. I wrote my first book complete with wallpaper cardboard cover in my early years of school. I used to love to write about my pony Dawn. She was my inspiration for writing when I was a kid. I have always been a tall girl but Dawn made me feel so small. I remember looking up to this great horse and thinking “wow, such a huge horse with such a beautiful heart”. That pony I used to ride around the farm telling her all my little kid problems. Oh goodness to have those problems now instead of the ones I struggled with as an adult. I think how soothing it would be to ride around just one more time and tell Dawn how my life turned out. I shared a lot of tears and good times with that old pony. She will forever be my pony the, old girl, who changed my heart forever.
I have always dreamed of writing a book. I have mulled around a ton of ideas. I have read so many great books in my lifetime and I still have so many on my list of must reads. The dream of writing my own book is still very real. Why not? What’s the worst that can happen? Failure? I’m no longer scared by what it means to fail, I know I can do my best and that is all I can do.
I have always had a journal that I write in. I need to write to express my thoughts and feelings. I have written a lot of dark sad poetry. I think I needed to write dark poems as a way to get my feelings out. I have always had a need to write so why not blog? It’s kinda like a journal only anyone can read it. AH! Anyone can tell you there thoughts and opinions. Point out your mistakes or send you wonderful words of encouragement. It has been an interesting experience so far. I have to say I am enjoying it all, taking it all as it comes.
When I released my website I decided to write one blog a week for a year, that’s my goal. Truth is I have never read a blog. I have no idea what I am doing. I am just doing my best and if my best isn’t good enough fuck it. I decided to just sit down week after week show up and write. I have no top secret writing time line or way of coming up with these ideas I just write whatever comes to my mind. Sometimes I could sit in my office with document open and nothing at all comes to my mind. I end up endlessly searching online and being distracted. Sometimes I sit down and a million ideas come flowing out. I type so fast I feel like my keyboard will catch on fire. I have my granny edit my work because I know my original draft is a hot mess.
My first idea was to write about Louise Hay, the lady who inspired my positive journey and my Opa, the man behind the motto because he is what the meaning of family is to me. He is always inspiring me to show up in life and do my best. I wanted to say thank you to him for all that he has done and continues to do. Then after writing my first blog I realized how thankful I am towards so many people.
My journey of life has not always been this fun or positive. I wasn’t always able to just realize how truly blessed I have been, even in my failures and that not everyone succeeds at everything they set out to do and that is okay. My Opa has always been a dreamer and an inventor and he has come up with some amazing ideas in his life time. He has built and created so many different things in life. He hasn’t always been successful. He too has failed but he always learned a valuable lesson from his failures. He always looks outside the box for another better way to do something again or make it better. To work with my Opa is a great honour he is amazing to watch. He is a dreamer and a creator.
I absolutely love reading stories of how people have overcome failures and risen up, that never give up! I have done that and it’s the greatest feeling. This beats any other feeling in the world. I chased a lot of unhealthy feelings with various addictions and unhealthy relationships. I can tell you nothing compares to this feeling. I am talking about the absolutely amazing feeling of accomplishment for living your best life every single day!
I enjoy writing these blogs and all your feedback! I will continue this journey and reach fifty two blogs, maybe more! I am just writing and seeing where it takes me.
Thank you to everyone who reads my blogs, who believe in me, who has reached out. I have had many wonderful conversations and memories shared. Thank you Opa, as always, for being my rock. Thank you granny for all your hard work not only editing but for everything you do.
Here is to many more great stories yet to come…as I keep writing my truth and maybe a book!